Well You know where I stand on all of this

I especially think you need to talk to Nikki. She is a writer. She has been through writers Block. She knows better than anyone else what you have been through. Besides.. If you wuss out.. I will kick your ass. Badly.



Did I mention I will kick your ass?

so i guess you're saying you'll kick my ass?

wow, that's amazing that you'll actually be a published author. i've often thought when reading your entries how well you express yourself, the way you have of saying things on just the right way.

so i hope you're able to get things together and take advantage of the opportunity you've got. haha if you had any idea how ridiculous that sounds coming from someone as amazingly good at procrastinating and putting things off 'til the last possible moment as me, you'd laugh your ass off.

but yeah, good luck, hope everything works out for the best :)

why thank you so much for saying that!!!!

it seems to me that everyone thinks i'm a good writer...everyone besides me that is!

so thank you for the kind words. they are appreciated more than you know.

First off...*BIG-ASS HUGS* for about an hour.

I would agree with your analysis that you're wrong about something. I don't think he'd be fighting so hard to keep you if you didn't want to. I'm glad you didn't cheat on him. Cheating is NEVER a good idea. Especially when you decide to do it in a fit of anger. NEVER a good idea, and I'm sure you'd just end up hating yourself later. So don't do it. Seriously. Don't.

And the writing thing. Believe me, I know how much the writer's block is teh suck. One thing I've found helps sometimes is freewriting. don't think, don't plan, just sit down and start typing or writing, however you do it. It doesn't always work, and you get a lot of crap, but sometimes, you find nuggets. But you need to grab this. I only say this because I care, and because I should be making these same types of opportunities for myself, but if you do wuss out, you will not have one, but two to deal with. I WILL double-team your ass with The Muse.

Hang in there, sweetie. It will all work out. *YET MORE BIG-ASS HUGS* Me love you long time.

you're right babes...i would have regretted it.

and i am convinced that i am wrong somewhere, though i dont know where or about what...and i am going to wait til i ask him and give him a chance to explain or lie and then go from there. i dont want it to be true. i dont want to leave him...lord knows i dont. and in certain situations certain things are allowed...but i will not be lied to or disrespected, and if i find out he's doing either one, as much as it will hurt me, i wll do what i have to do.

and the writing...*sigh*
i thinks its the whole factor that i am feeling like all my shit is repetitive and i am tired of writing about love or sadness, because i am tired of feeling sad and wanting love. i dont know. but i have been trying though...i have.

and i will not have you and muse on my tail. no sir. thats one ass whipping i can do without. though right about now a nice ass smack might do me some good *wink*

I hear ya hun. *YET MORE BIG-ASS HUGS* You'll work through it all, I am convinced.

Yeah, you don't want the Doc and the Muse on yer ass, we're badass and we fight dirty. So just keep that in mind. ;) heh.

Luv ya, hun. =)

Have I missed a step along the way? Is Adam locked up somewhere? I feel like I missed a vital entry.

Also, use your pain, your happiness, your whatever to get that dryness all wet and flowing again. (Hee hee hee - that sounds kinky!) And get a damn book out! Then I can say "Oh I knew Thea when..."

Love you.

yeah...he's in the system. though right now he was in the last staged before coming home *a half way house* but when i took him to court the other day, the judge decided to lock him up for 10 days just to be a bitch. now they're saying he might not go back to the program and might end up back in jail! :( i haven't talked to him and now i might not get the chance to do so for awhile so everything is up in the air with us. it is so hard, t...i feel like i am losing myself.

ha...since i'll have extra books, maybe i can send you an autographed copy...that way when i'm famous, you can hock it!!! lol!!!

and did you get my birthday emails? i never know if you get them or not....

love ya girl